What is Love?

Now a days a lot of people say they are in love with someone. I ask them how they know and they never have an answer for me. I'll tell you what I think love is, it is when you think about someone all the time and you want them to be happy, by doing large or small things for them. Your heart races every time you talk to them, be it online or in person. You can not imagine being without them or even remember a time before you met them, they were always there. I dream of the day that I will feel this emotion, sometimes I do feel this but I just squash it down because I know the person I like is taken. I have said I liked a lot of people in the past but I truly don't know what to do. I have liked this person since ninth grade, but I was to afraid to approach her with my feelings until recently. We were on the swim team and marching band together  and those were the happiest times of my life. I would secretly glance at her all the time, when I was sure no one was looking. One day in ninth grade at a football game, a friend named Travis told me to go up to her and ask her out, apparently I was caught. I tried to work up the courage, but it failed me when I most needed it. He then swooped in and started dating her before I could try again. I wasn't mad, she seemed happy, so I wasn't mad. At least I thought I wasn't, now that I think back on it, I was really upset. Yet once again, I did nothing. Am I doomed to forever be alone? She probably right now is reading this and is thinking "oh will that's so sweet, but I have a boyfriend".

Excited

I am excited because there is someone I like who maybe might like me back. I met her almost a year ago and she is very pretty and is better than me at everything that I can think of without talking about how we met or where. So as to protect her privacy I wont give out too much information, or none at all in this case. I actually have been loosing sleep lately because I have been thinking about her. I am not complaining mind you, just stating a fact. This will be cut short, cause I lost my umm....uh...momentum i guess

The Alchemyst

The Alchemyst: The Secrets of the Immortal Nicholas Flamel, by Michael Scott is a wonderful book about adventure and magic. This book is the first in a series, about twins who stumble upon a fight between good and evil in an old bookshop that Josh Newman works at in San Fransisco, owned by an older man who turns out to be Nicholas Flamel. They then discover their ability to use magic and they begin to learn for Flamel. At first only Sophie can use magic and it causes a rift to appear in the twins relationship. After accidentally falling into the world of magic, Sophie and Josh Newman must run away on an adventure to save the world from the evil Doctor John Dee and the Dark Elders. Along the way they find out that there is real live magic and even more amazing is that they have the power to save or destroy the world.

Kiki's Delivery Service

Next in my collection of Miyazaki films is Kiki's Delivery Service. This movie is about a young bubbly girl who leaves home at thirteen to go on a journey to further her studies as a witch. At first she knows very little of the world but as the movie progresses she begins to experience it. According to the film, every young witch at thirteen has to spend a year away from home and find a town or city with no other witches to spend the year. So Kiki (pronounced key key), along with her guide cat Jiji (pronounced gee gee), fly off on an adventure and find a city on the ocean, a place she always dreamed of going to. At said city; which I believe is based on a pre-WW2 austrian city circa 1930's, but that is just my observation; she has to earn money by starting a delivery service. Where she flies on her broom, albeit sometimes not sucessfully, and delivers packages to coustomers. She came up with this buisness because it is revieled that she doesnt have a lot of talent/experience in the other forms of witchcraft, like potion making and fortune telling. She also works part time at a bakery owned by a couple, Osono and "the baker" that lets her stay with them. While spending her training year in the port city, she makes new friends in a flight obsessed boy named Tombo and an artist who lives on her own named Ursula.

This Movie has a star studded cast that brings to life this movie. The leading role is played by a younger Kirsten Dunst, more famous for her role in the Spider man trilogy. Voicing Jiji is the wonderfully brilliant comidian Phil Hartman, whom the english translation was dedicated to for his untimely passing. The role of Osono is played by Tress MacNeille, famous for her voice roles in animation such as futurama, simpsons and various other roles, while "the baker" is voiced by Brad Garrett, more famous for his role as Robert Barone on Everybody Loves Raymond. Tombo is voiced by the surprisingly, in my opinion, Matthew Lawrence, whom is famous for his role as Jack on the tv sitcom, Boy meets World. Finally, Ursula is voiced by Janeane Galofalo, famous for her role as a regular on Saturday Night Live between 1994 aand 1995.

Time

What do you do with the time you have been given. I think about this question a lot when I am just sitting somewhere not doing anything. Do you know what I come up with? Nothing. I am doing nothing with my time now a days. I am stuck in a rut so to speak, where I do the same thing every day. Don't get me wrong, I do a lot of things, like talking to my friends from high school and from work, or playing video games, or working, or... you know what, I don't do much do I? This has just proved my point. I need to get out and do something, but I don't know what to do or where to go. Maybe I could start working out again, but then I would need motivation to continue. I could join an adult swim team I think, but then again I am not comfertable with how I look right now so that leads back to my lack of exersizing.  Does anyone have any suggestions as to what I can do in my free time?

What will I do?

It is kind of weird that I actually like someone. I have actually liked this person for some time, since I first met her in high school. Unfortunately I was stupid and never approached her, so now we are miles apart and it is unlikely that we would get together. She is beautiful beyond compare, with her red hair and her genuine smile, with her beautiful blue/green eyes and, may I say, attractive figure. Unfortunately she has recently lost her mother and has been pretty sad because of it, I sort of know what she is going through, with the loss of my grandparents. I most likely was not as close to them as she was with her mother. If I had the chance to meet her, I would probably thank her for raising such a beautiful and upstanding young woman. Until recently I was terrified of approaching her because she had a boyfriend, but I recently found out she was single again so I thought I would take a chance and try to approach her.

It has been a while

As you may have noticed, it has been quite a while since I last wrote a blog. I would like to apologize for this, but I had no motivation to do so, write a blog that is, not the apology, that is sincere. A few things have happened since I last wrote a blog, like me getting a promotion at my job, I am now called a "general clerk", which basically means I am their whipping boy or something now. If they need someone, whatever the task, they call on me now. Unfortunately its not much of an improvement though. I may have gotten a very slight pay raise, but its not really a lot. I am happy I received the raise though, it means something along the lines of being trusted more.....blah blah blah, I am still their b***h. Another thing that happened recently was my brother got a job here in Houston, so he has been living with us until he finds and moves into a new house. This means I, theoretically, see him more often. I say theoretically because I still do not see him that much, I mean in the past five years, I have seen his dog more than I have seen him. I understand that he is busy and such, so I do not expect to see him that often. One final thing that has happened is I have finally gone on dates, mind you there were two of them, with two different women, but they were still dates darn it. So now that I have gotten some experience, I feel more comfortable asking women out.