I look back and think of high school. Back then I was attracted to a lot of girls, but I never built up the courage to ask them out. And if by some miracle one of them flirted with me, I would doubt myself and think they were making fun of me. I wasn't a stalker or a creep, but if I saw someone I was attracted to, I would glance at them from time to time. I couldn't make many friendships, just passing acquaintances that I eventually lost contact with once the semester ended or they totally ignored me afterwords. But I had good times as well, of the few friendships I made, they were truly great friends. Most of the new friends I made, I met in the marching band. To guard their privacy, I have decided to not name anyone in my ramblings unless I get permission from them. Another group that I made friendships that I treasure in was the Boy Scouts of America, Troop 1325.
Sometimes when I feel depressed, I try texting or writing messages on peoples facebook accounts to convince myself that people care that I live.... wow that didn't sound suicidal. But worry not, I have never even considered killing myself. But anyway, i try to talk to people when I'm feeling depressed to try to bring my happiness back. During a lunch break in the band room in high school, I was once told that if I wasn't smiling, that he would feel sad as well. Apparently I was always smiling and that helped some people?
Anyway I think I have talked about this enough so if you have any thoughts about this, feel free to comment