Thursday, February 23, 2012
Once again I have hit a wall in inspiration, I try to think about whaT i want to write about, but I just can't figure it out. how do those professional bloggers do this, they can just sit there and pump out blog after blog, while I struggle to think of a short paragraph. I once thought I over thought things, but now i wonder if i don't think enough. Is my lack of thoughts connected to my lack of friends? I wonder if that is possible. Are thoughts and conversational skills linked? Lately I have been thinking a lot about these blogs and what they mean to me, they are a way for me to get my frustrations out, but i cant get all my frustrations out. a lot of my frustrations are very private and I don't want to offend people or worry people with my personal problems. i am thinking of writing a second blog, but just for me, does that make sense? i don't know what to do, it feels like there is an empty part of me, and I don't know what to do to fill that hole, do you understand? I think I need help, i feel like the nothingness is expanding, like it is going to engulf me if something doesn't happen soon. it is so frustrating that i don't make enough to live on, i barely make enough to pay rent to my parents every week, and when I don't i become depressed because I failed my parents once again. I got to go, I'll talk again when I can.